It is really hard to deal with< I have experienced 6 miscarriages, 3 late first trimester and 3 early. My experience is when you start to TTC again things start to feel a bit better , but you have to wait until you feel emotionally ready. It is always good to talk, especially to people who understand, it will help to have a look around here and talk to others, and the best thing is you can say what you need to and no -one is going to judge you. Hope your first day at work is not too difficult. Hugs and best wishes Pam.