oh Pisk - I wish you didn't have to tell the story of your little man in this forum.

Thankyou for sharing - it is an honour that you shared your love and heartache for your precious baby boy.

I hope sharing helped salve your pain, even just a little.

I agree with the other posts - it would be good for you to talk to your obstetrician about her management of you.

Go gently and take it one moment at a time.