Polymnia, I am so sorry for the loss of your precious angels Angelo and Ayone Yes you can cry and scream and do whatever you need to do to mourn the loss of your precious angels. I cried for months after Cooper grew his wings and there are times where I will cry for weeks. Grieving is such an emotional rollercoaster and you just need to do what is best for you. Surround yourself with supportive and caring people. It is such a long journey ahead, one of grieving, the 'what ifs', the pain, the anger. You just need to take one day at a time, one hour at a time and I'm not sure it ever gets 'better'. The pain never goes away, you just learn to live with the pain.

Aneirin. your strong little fighter will help you through these painful times. While it will be so incredibly hard the day you bring him home, cherish it.

Take care, thinking of you