The loss of our little Hope, (named by my DH, he said we should call our bub, (if we were to be so lucky) Hope after a FS, who was absolutly beautiful, whilst transfering our embryo) via a FET, has been, for lack of a better word, traumatic, and utterly devastating. The surgery, the recovery, and the grief of another loss, affected me in a way, I wasn't aware could exist.
As much as I tried to move along, another medical setback, reminded me of what we lost, I sometimes felt I was being punished, for trying to block our loss. you see, it was my way of coping, but it wasnt to be, my body just kept me unwell, and forced me to grieve.
An ectopic is a loss, like any loss, I pleaded for any possible way to save the pregnancy, even though I knew, it was medically impossible, it's a mothers instinct, to save her unborn child. It was not to be, we have another angel.
My post is a way, to recognise my Angel , so I may give our beautiful embryo, who grew to six weeks, in a tube, a goodbye, and allow ourselves to look towards the future, and never give up "hope", that an earthbound baby is on it's way.
Be free little Hope , I will allways think of you
Last edited by Bengal; February 12th, 2010 at 08:32 PM.
Your post is beautiful...being able to express your feelings ike you have will help a lot.
I am so sorry for your loss.
You are right never give up "Hope" there is a special plan in place to get your your earthbound baby.
Take care, wishing you all the best. HUGS, HUGS, HUGS.
I'm so sorry for your losses, what a terribly difficult path you are wandering down atm
I have lost many babies to miscarriage, and one to stillbirth, and the pain is very real. You can't hide from it because it will never leave you until you just sit with it and live with it for a while. Grief is safe, living it will not kill you, but hiding from it will.
Lots and lots of love to you, may you find peace, and may you one day be blessed with a child of your own xxxxxxxxx
Oh, love, that is so sad. I am so very sorry to hear of what your are going through. An ectopic is a very traumatic loss, a tough road, and you'll have all the love in the world and an angel on your shoulder supporting it while you take that road.
oh honey, I had an ectopic rupture last tuesday and whilst I am recovering from the physical affects I am aware I am ignoring the emotional side. We do what we can, when we can. There is no right order or time limit. Be kind to yourself and surround yourself with support. I feel your loss and wish I could comfort you IRL!
i have been thinking of you so much. you know how my heart breaks for what you are going through. A loss is a loss, we never saw any of ours have hb but there were still there to us.
WLAB, I am so sorry to read this post, haven't been online that much and its just devastating to find out this...huge sending your way and I hope time will ease the pain and will give your strength to pursue your dreams...thinking of you hunny
WLAB, I am so sorry and heartbroken to read of your loss, there are no words that can make it any better, please know you have the love of everyone on here, thinking of you and wishing you the best, and praying for your baby Hope. Big hugs xx
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