I know its ok for the kids to see me cry, and upset. But when is it too much??

I cry ALL THE TIME... and I am getting very sick, and feeling SOOOO guilty that I am making them upset over Seven everyday.....

I just cant stop. If I go off to my room, they find me anyway...

I just hate that they are moving on, and I keep pulling them back into the sadness and the mouring... I need to stop, and I cant.....

Last Friday would of been my 20wks, and today its been 3 weeks since the d & c.. so real bad few days, and I can see it on my kids faces.....

man, I am sitting here a blubberiung mess, with Za getting upset... I HATE IT....