so sorry you & your family are going through this terrible loss.When my kids saw/see me crying about my loss,i would tell themthat i was sad about the baby dying but happy i had them to hug me.I know other kids know this but i think it helped ease my guilt my voicing it a lot.Remember you have nothing to feel guilty about,your doing the best you can for your family.There is an old saying'guilt is a mother's middle name',we're to hard on ourselves somtimes.Hugs