i cant beleive i am here

[~MummaBear~]

im not sure if this is the right place so please let me know..

On tuesday the 29/09 i went to have my anatomy scan, i had a
scan exactly 2 weeks before and my little peanut was perfect.. i went to my anatomy scan thinking all i had to think about was if my baby was a boy or a girl.. this was my 4th pregnancy, i have 3 healthy children, nothing can go wrong

well there was no heart beat, my baby's little heart had stopped the day before..


I gave birth to my beautiful angle baby yesterday at 17 weeks and 5 days , everything was perfect.. my baby has little fingers and toes with little nails and everything

I just want to know how this could happen.. it all just sucks

[diannescruffy]

I am so very sorry for the loss of your precious angel, big to you. It's not fair losing a baby, just remember your angel will always be close to your heart, hang on to those memories tightly. Take day by day and give yourself time to heal. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Regards,
Dianne
Emmanuel born sleeping @24wks
Trisomy 13

[Twin Sister]

Oh, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I'm heartbroken for you. Be sure to take extra good care of yourself while you take time to heal.

[Elocin]

I am so sorry for your loss

[~MummaBear~]

thank you for your thoughts girls..

it still just doesnt feel real, like i am going to wake up and it will all be over..
and yet i feel so empty at the same time.

it is really hard to explain to the other kids too, they dont understand why their baby wont be coming home, all they want to do is hold their bubba.

[diannescruffy]

It is devastating for the children too. My DD cried for weeks, every night she would talk to my belly and kiss bubba good night. When I came home from hospital she couldn't understand why I didn't bring our baby home. I found being open with them about Emmanuels death helped and answering their questions even though it brought me to tears every time.

Regards,
Dianne
Emmanuel born sleeping @24wks
Trisomy 13