Hi SadNicole

I understand exactly where you are at. (I am just a week past my 1st m/c). You are hurting badly and your emotions are very raw. It does not matter that you only knew about your baby for a short time. You still had time to connect to your angel.

Do you have family or friends around that you can talk to? I know that does not replace your b/f being there, but if you can talk to someone about it, it might help you a little.

I contacted the Bonnie Babes Foundation today and am waiting for a call back from a counsellor. My husband had been great, but he feels he can't do anymore for me and that I need some professional help. I will let you know how I go, it might be worth a phone call to them (or some other form of counselling).

I am also finding that taking it just one day at a time is getting me through it.

Please let your emotions out. Don't bottle anything up. Cry, scream, rant, rave, write in here, start a diary, create a blog.

I also try and create a list of positives and negatives. I won't post them here as they may offend some people, but they are things that get me through each hour, each day.

I also find that putting all my efforts into other things helps a little - keeps you busy and your mind off it for a little while - gives your body/mind/soul a few minutes rest.

I didn't write this to make it about me, please don't think that - I write my findings in the hope that there is something there that will help you out.

Sending you soul healing vibes.