Sofy - I wish that by some miracle that you could have some more time with your Angel, just to ease your pain. Only time tho will help you get thru this, and thru alot of support from those around you. You will find alot of people on here that have gone thru something similar to you, and know how you feel. It really does help to be able to get things off your chest and communicate with people who understand, such as these people on here. You realise that you aren't alone especially with how you are feeling and what you are going thru. Grieving takes time, and time is what is needed to feel somewhat normal again. The last thing I wanted was to forget my Angels and was so scared I would forget, that I wrote how I was feeling down and addressed it to my angels. I hope you have been communicating with a counsellor, as it helps to having someone there who will just let you talk and not pass judgement, and to let you know that you are normal.
Take care