I miscarried last week :(

[TreeTops]

Here's my story from the last 3 weeks. I'm sorry it's a long one, even without the all details.

On the 8th of April, when I was about 5 1/2 weeks pregnant I had some bleeding which was like my period starting. I was horrified, sobbing in the public toilets as I thought I was miscarrying.

I went to the womens assessment centre at the Womens and Childrens Hospital and they took blood tests and did a scan. They could just make out a tiny heartbeat, and told me my hormone levels were good. I was told to come back in a week for a follow-up scan.

On the 15th of April I went for my follow-up scan only to be told there was no heartbeat, and that I'd miscarried. I was asked whether I wanted to let nature take its course, or take hormones to bring it on, or go under general for a D&C. They said we also had the option of an scan in the ultrasound dept upstairs. We decided to go home and think about the options whilst waiting the three hours before the appointment for the next scan.

So after three hours of believing I'd miscarried we went along to the ultrasound dept and were shown a beating little heart on our embryo. The dating size measurements had the embryo at 6w4d, which was just what I calculated from my ovulation date. We went home feeling astonished, and grateful. A couple of hours later I got a call from the doctor saying that he was pleased to see I hadn't miscarried, but that he was concerned with the size of the embryo compared to the gestational sac, and also the heart rate was only 80bpm, and he would have expected 100-110 at that stage. And so the emotional rollercoaster goes on! He asked us to come back the following week for another scan in the ultrasound dept.

And so on April 22nd, last week, we went along and were told that there was no heartbeat, and that the little bub hadn't grown since the week prior. Devastating. We had a talk with the doctor and decided to book in the next day to be given some hormones to bring on the miscarriage.

DH and I arrived at the hospital at 8 the next morning. At 9am I was given two tablets of misoprostol to dissolve under my tongue. They gave me a pan to put in the loo to collect any matter that came out while I was peeing, and pads to use. The cramping started at about 10.30-11, and the bleeding not long after. I had two more tablets at 12, then 3pm, and then 6pm. The pain wasn't too bad, I had a couple of panadol at 2.30, and by 3.30pm I was wishing I'd had the panadiene forte which they'd offered, but it wasn't too bad for too long. They said at the beginning I may need to stay overnight, but by 7.30 the pain had died down quiet a bit, as had the bleeding, plus they said they collected quite a bit of matter...I'm pretty sure I saw the sac in the pan at about 12

The last week has been ok at times, and really hard at others. This was our first pregnancy. I feel like it's brought my husband and I closer to each other, he's been great throughout it all.

Thanks for listening. If anyone wants any info on the misoprostol experience I'm happy to share more info by PM.

[Lulu]

oh what an awful experience TT, I'm so sorry to hear this was the end xoxoxoxo

Its been a terrible few weeks for a few BB members. I wish it would all stop.

Take care xoxoxox

[diannescruffy]

So sorry to hear of your loss.
Sending you big hugs

Dianne

[Shanti]

Thank you for sharing your story Treetops it's very awful what you've had to go thru.... I'm very sorry.

We are all here to listen to you and support you. That's wonderful your DH is so supportive, and it is nice it is bringing you closer even more

I hope it's not long until your body is ready to have another go.....

[Evie76]

TreeTops, I'm very sorry for your loss. It's just the most horrible experience.....

This has been a crusty month.............. I'm putting a ban on next month. No one is allowed to miscarry in May - all babies MUST stick. Any babies that don't I am going to write a strongly worded letter to.............. that's all I can think to do..........

Just horrible.....................

[DoubleK]

im so sorry to hear of your loss, what an emotional rollercoaster for you both.

its hard to believe, but you will feel better soon. i wish you all the best with your future pregnancies.

Rach

[MistyFying]

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this.... what an awful time for you

[Emmy-Lou]

Huge sooo sorry for your loss...take care and we are all here for you as you go through this painful journey...
xoxox

[Gigi]

no words, just thinking of you, wishing you whatever it is that will bring you some peace about this

you really have been thru the wringer

[~ Mylitta ~]

TreeTops - I was so sad for you when I read your story! You must have felt so confused

My obs didn't actually offer me the drug option. I'm not sure why, but his recommendation was to have the D&C under a general anaesthetic. I guess if things had gone wrong with my D&C I would have wished that he had given me the drug option, but I'm not sure how well I would have coped emotionally. You must have been so strong at the hospital all day

Hopefully our bodies are now in the process of healing and getting ready for the healthy, happy babies I am sure we are going to conceive very soon

[Katiegirl]

Treetops - I am so sorry that you have lost your precious baby. You have been through such a difficult time and I really admire your strength. I am so glad to hear that your DH is being a wonderful support. Please know we are all here to listen and offer you support when you need it. This unfortuntely is a place full of people who understand what you are feeling.

Take care

[TreeTops]

Thank you to you all for your kind words. It is such a shame that this has happened to so many of us, but it has really helped me to be able to read about other people's experiences.

[ElleJay]

Oh hun! I'm so very sorry If you need to talk to anyone, I'll always be here for you - You'll be in my thoughts and prayers

[loopy_girl21]

I'm so sorry... Your in the right place!!

[TreeTops]

I just wanted to pop back into this thread with a bit of an update on the misoprostol experience in case there are people who have searched and come across this post.

I was terrified at the thought of a D&C, and didn't want to wait for my little embryo to pass naturally. I was told there was a 84% success rate of misprostol, and chose to go ahead. I think since then I have read somewhere that figure is not based on the first round, but a number of people in the study had to have two or more.

I had 7 days of bleeding after my hospital experience above. Then after that I had 2 weeks of spotting/sometimes light flow. I went to the womens assessment centre and was told my b-hCG levels were at 100, and I was given a lower dose of misoprostol (and some antibiotics) to take at home over two days. Three days later the cramps started again, and there was medium-heavy bleeding for 8 days, and spotting for another 3. I had blood tests every week for 5 weeks before the levels returned to pre-pregnancy levels.

With the knowledge I have now of how depressing it is to see a reminder of your miscarriage every time you go to the loo for weeks, and to have to go to the assessment centre with all of its memories every week, I will go a D&C if there is ever a next time.

I'm sure there are many sucess stories of misoprostol. It does seem like a great way of avoiding surgery, which itself has risks. I just thought I should add the ending to my experience for others' reference.

[Inanna]

Thankyou for sharing Treetops. I am sorry to read of the sad loss of your baby. Big hugs my love..

[TreeTops]

Thanks Flowerchild. It's still hard, 10 weeks later, but I'm getting there.

[RubyRed]

Treetops, Thanks for posting the update. I had a d&c last week and actually felt like I was given no other options..At the time I just went along with it, but later I started to wonder if it was the right decision.

After reading your update I must say I am feeling better with the d&c , I dont think I could have coped with over 5 weeks of trauma. I am so sorry that you had to go through that and I hope it starts to get easier for you.