Mel, I don't know you and have am sorry I did not followed your story until now and words fail me at your amazing strength.

I am so deeply sorry for the loss of Nicholas and Joshua, but in answer to your question of "Do they know how they were and are loved still", I have no doubt in my mind.

You have my deepest sympathies hon, you are a truly inspiring woman and thank you for sharing Joshua's story, they were and still are lucky to have a Mum like you.