Oh hun, my heart absolutely aches for you. Take comfort in the arms of those around you, it will be a awfully sad time for you and it won't go away quickly, there's also the hormone withdrawals that will hit and things will look 100 times worse. Make sure you do what you need to help you within yourself get through. Remember, it's not day by day, it is moment by moment.

Big cuddles and best wishes to you and yours