Big cuddles you brave & courageous Mama. Welcome to Belly Belly - I am glad you found us. I am sure you will find so much loving support here - I know I have.

I am deeply sorry for the loss of Ellie - it is unthinkably intolerable to go come home with empty arms. I understand trying to steer clear of other people at school etc. There is a little boy in the town I live that was born when my baby girl should have been born. Each time I see him I think of my daughter and what she would have been doing. It is hideously impossible to face others sometimes. Going to school was something I didn't do for a long time. I just couldn't stand the sadness of others, or how the world still seemed the same - when for me it was forever altered.

So, know what you are feeling is so normal. Rest, eat well and fall into the arms of those that love you and support you. Right now that is all you can do.

It does sound like you could have an IC - there are many success stories for women who have had a suture if you do decide to contemplate another pregnancy in the future.

Right now you are supported here, you are amongst many who have dealt with similar losses.

Fly safely Ellie - dance in the stars with all the other angels...