I hardly know how to start.....

On saturday morn i was in the shower when i experienced a big bleed, i went straight to gp who did a preg test got a BFP however cos i was bleeding i knew there was a problem. I got sent straight away for an internal ultrasound, they couldn't find anything in the uterus but found a mass and fluid in my left tube. They sent me straight to hosp , i was admitted straight away, within 1 hr was in surgery where they performed a laporoscpy where they had to remove my left tube.

It all happened so quickly that my head is still spinning, i didn't even know i was preg till saturday, no time to digest that news let alone that i was having an ectopic preg.

I have two beautiful children already, thank god for them as they are getting me through this. i'm not quite sure how to get through this, we were always going to have at least three children but now i don't think i could go through this again.

I just had to get this out cos i feel like i can't say this to my family, they all feel like i should feel blessed as i have two healthy children which is so true but they can't understand the loss i feel.