EmmyLou, hugs to you. The people who post here truly understand what you are going thru right now. Surround yourself with people who understand and love you and do whatever you need to do. Whether that be cry, scream, sleep all day, get away for a few days. Whatever it takes to help start the healing process.

It's a long process, a painful journey. But you WILL GET THERE. No one can tell you when, but one day you will find it just a tiny bit easier.

Best of luck to you. You will be blessed with 10 tiny fingers and toes one day.....