Emmy-Lou, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope you find as much comfort here at BB as many of us have including myself. There are so many of us here that know what you are going through. Take the time to grieve, it is all part of the healing process but most of all take care of yourself and your DP.
Only you will know when the time is right to try again for that perfect little person you so desire and believe me, you will one day be blessed.