After a lot of dr visits and being transfered to another hospital and 3 ultra sounds I am no longer pregnant. Feeling ok with it all still having my down times, obviously there must of been something terribly wrong for me to lose my bub so early on in my pregnancy. We will try again sometime in the future when the time feels right for us both and hopefully next time I will have a very sticky healthy bub and be able to give my DF and DD a lovely little package at the end of the 9 months. As much as losing this bub is heart breaking best it happen now then later on down the track. I have a wonderful supportive DF and could not of went thru this without him by my side every step of the way.
Luckily I had a natural miscarriage and did not need the D&C like my dr thought I may have.
Anyhow hopefully soon and I have all my FX that next time I start a thread it will be saying that I have a BFP and a very sticky bub.
Thank you all for your very kind words and hugs I wish you all the very best for your futures.
Now it's time for me to move on and get back in my saddle and work my horses again.
Cheers
Helen
Hi Helen
Im in a similar position so just wanting to say you're not alone and Im terribly sorry for your loss. Big Hugs!
Our lil 1 only made it to 4 or 5 weeks, and even though Ive been coping fine because I knew all along things werent good its still kinda heartbreaking. Our's was our 2nd IVF attempt and I had bleeding right at the start when AF would have been due and then around 4 weeks I had a heavy/clotty bleed and thought I was miscarrying. I had emergency U/S the next day and there was something in the uterus and no heartbeat. They said it could have still been just too early for a heartbeat but I didnt get my hopes up because of the bleed. I had a Blood test 2.5 weeks later and my HCG had fallen to 50. So I knew the pg wasnt viable then. I had been prepared at least. I havent bled since that big bleed so hoping AF arrives soon so my system is back to normal. DH and I certainly wont be waiting we'll be TTC from now on.
Im just happy we actually got that step closer and I got to see those magic two lines but obviously still sad it didnt all end with a happy ending and that I lost a bub that was inside me.
Chances are though for both of us that it was just one of those fluke things and next time we get healthy bubs. Good luck, FX for you!
Thank you for your hugs Loops12 they are greatly appreciated. Our bub too was only 5 weeks into my pregnancy when he/she left us. Although it's a terrible experience I truly feel it's time to move on and not dwell on this. I am now back riding my horses and have bought my young gelding in to start breaking him in. We will give it some time before TTC again and I do feel the next pregnancy will be successful (I hope) At least now we both know that my DF is not infertile as he believed he was. He is 36 with no children as yet and I am 34 and have 1 very delightful DD who is very switched on and does not miss a thing. We both love her dearly and we are looking forward to adding to our family sometime in the near future.
I wish you all the luck in the world on a future BFP and a healthy happy bub soon.
Kindest regards
Helen.
Thanks Helen and you're welcome, hugs are good.
Thats it, we just have to find things to occupy ourselves. Wish I could have another horse. But can't really afford it at the moment and have to many other things happening. Def when I have children I'll get them into it.
Thanks for your wishes and same to you, wishing you a BFP very soon. GL
Good to hear you are back in the saddle and with your horses. They are just such divine animals. Just something to have a think about for when you are thinking about tcc and your journey to date....
Dr Gavin Sachs in Sydney specialises in recurrent miscarriage, esp early miscarriage. He will do phone appointments. He is a proponent of natural killer cells ( being too high in the uterus) an emerging and controversial area.
There are also lots of other tests -that other Obs and FS can recommend for coagulation problems in your blood such as Factor V Leiden, tests for auto immune diseases such a Hashimoto's, and tests to look at the structural anatomy of your uterus. There is a really good sticky by Innanna in teh recurrent miscarriage thread which details the main areas of investiation and tests. Just something to think about.
Good luck and I do hope that the next we hear from you is a BFP and news of a sticky bub.
Thanks again Louise,
Maybe and hopefully we will both get soon, until then we have to keep our chins up and just keep soldiering onwards and upwards. So I am also sending you lots and lots of and your way.
Thank you Mumma Mia for your kind words it's greatly appreciated. I feel so much better with in myself today after a few tears again last night, I went for a bit of a ride this morning and I am slowly accepting my miscarriage. I am really starting to look forward to being able to try again, although I will be terrified that it may happen again there's also a chance it won't. I was unsure if I wanted another child before I had the miscarriage but now I know for sure that I do want another child more than anything else I could ask for.
So here's to all of us and hopefully we all have lots of real soon and then we will be in here on a positive note.
Keep smiling and take care girls, hope to keep chatting to you all in here.
Helen. xox
Thanks for that Dory,
The drs (3 of them in total) have told me not to be overly concerned about the MC as it happened so early in my Pregnancy. They all believe that there must of been something wrong with bub for me to lose it so early on as I have had 1 daughter with no real complications and I fell Pregnant this time with in 12months of coming off of birth control. Would have been pregnant earlier but DF has been away working for over 12months. I fell pregnant in the 2 weeks he was home on his holidays. This is my first MC and if this was to happen again I would then look into why it has happened but I truly feel that this has happened due to some deformaty with bub while trying to develop. When I found out I was pregnant with bub #2 I felt with in myself that something just was not right and did not feel like I did with my 1st pregnancy. I thank you so very much for the info you have passed on to me, I will store it for a later date though just in case.
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soon, until then we have to keep our chins up and just keep soldiering onwards and upwards. So I am also sending you lots and lots of 
your way. 
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