Thank you all for your kind words and support, I am moved to tears. Thank you also for the honest assessment of the D&C--especially that their may be some emotional aftershocks. And I will certainly take painkillers, as you recommend. I think I am still in shock and so is DP. Went out for coffee today and it just seems like there are babies and pregnant women everywhere and that just hurts, but I suppose that is a common experience. my partner is really supportive and patient, but now I feel like I'm always going to be hoping it will happen, and that I will be one of the 45 year old or 47 year olds who get lucky, when it was easier when I had no expectations or hope. Life feels pretty empty at the moment, and everything else pales in comparison to that unexpected and joyous 11 weeks. Thank you again all for your understanding and support.
Metaphorica