So so sorry for your loss. Such a terribly sad experience for you and your husband. I had a lot of fertility treatment to conceive my son 10 years ago, and despite further treatment, I didn't fall pregnant again until I was 44,then 46 and they were natural conceptions. I was devastated to lose the babies, the last pregancy was twins which I lost earlier this year. I know how you feel - such an unexpected miracle when you are in your 40's and then devastation at the loss of something so precious. Give yourself time to grieve your loss but please don't give up. I hope so much you will have a healthy baby in the near future.