Hiya,
i have 4 beautiful sons but one Michael is now an angel.He was born prem @24wks in dec 2004 and lived for 5 days , he passed away in mine and his daddys arms 1 wk before xmas.

even now 3 and 1/2 yrs later my heart aches for him though to my friends and family i'm ok.I carry on with my cheerfull exteria for my other boys. there are nights that i can't sleep for thoughts of my wee man but i wake up , plaster on a smile.why? because others become fed up of me being miserable, it makes them feel better if i'm smiling. So i carry on pretending but omg it gets tiring.

so thats me, a mother of 4 boys but some would say a mother of 3, i will always have 4 sons , i will never deny Michael even if that makes others uncoftable. Sorry everyone but i was told tonight that it could have been worse if he'd have grown older and then i had lost him!!!!! omg people haven't a clue!

Sam xx