after thursday night's shamozzle, i was devastated. we planted the little remains next to the tree we'd already planted outside our bedroom window. then, friday i tried to get in and see my doctor, who was too busy too see me, and directed me to the after hours doctor. waiting in line for him was excruciating, i was looking for some reassurance and a referral for another u/s so i could check whether there was any more to pass. he was totally unsympathetic and wanted to send me home to wait it out !!! i went home, DF was at work till 10.30, i had a couple of wines and fed him when he got home after a 12+ hour day, put him to bed, and after increasing pain for a couple more hours i passed another lump. that's when i lost the plot !!!

after 14 hours in emergency and several chats with staff, an ultrasound and more waiting, we've discovered that it's probably all over now, and so far so good towards trying again. the Dr was a bit concerned that it seemed to be a lot of baby for 9 weeks, but there's no genetic problem as far as they can tell. i guess i was just too run-down and stressed this time. there's much more to the story than i've written in here, but it's viewable at MySpace.com - www.myspace.com/95132533
, no need to put it all here as well.

thank you all for your help and support, it's helped me very much. good luck to all of you and hugs...i'll be checking back soon