Thank you all for your support. We are slowly getting there, wherever 'there' is.
Still quite teary but starting to feel a bit more like myself.

I will be going back to work on Tuesday which will be a challenge but will help me to move on with life I think.

Murray and I have been talking about doing something nice to remember Vanilla by. At the moment I am thinking of a plain band with Vaniila engraved on it - something nice that I can wear everyday. Also putting together a little memory box with cards, BFP HPT, and a letter to our baby.

It still hurts so much