Ellie hun

words can't possibly suffice to express how truly sorry i am for you hun - i just want to wrap you in a big snuggly hug and give you a shoulder to cry on, a pair of ears to listen to your anger and tears, and just be a general sounding board for you. you have every right to be mad at the world and feel defeated, but as BW has said (and as i'm sure in your heart you know) right now isn't the time to make rash decisions. please give yourself a chance to grieve and be angry/hurt before you make any decisions on what to do in the future

as for the thoughts you've just expressed - hun, maybe there IS something there, and this needs to be investigated - broach it with your FS - but don't let doubts make you think that you're not meant to be a mum - you're a beautiful soul Ellie - and you deserve to be a mummy, as well as so many other wonderful things...

again, i am so sorry Ellie - you know where i'm at if you need to vent or cry

take care hun
BG