Thanks Ladies!

Dory - So pleased to hear from you & a HUGE congrads! I left you a post in the ttc forum shortly after you had posted that you were not well & felling rather glum. So I was elated when I returned to see that you had surfaced again & read your brilliant news! Stay strong & I hope the coming weeks treat you well, keep me up to date.. You will be in my thoughts & prayers

My latest is not fantastic... I am 4 weeks today however...
All of my bfps have been very faint for the last few days & seem to be diminishing again rather than darkening at all. I had a spot bleed 11 to 12 dpo that ceased (has never happened before & I actually placed a thread on the pregnancy after mc board about it) still I am getting faint bfps (even today!) but I really feel that my levels are not increasing, not being negative - just realistic. It would have happened by now if it was going to at all.

I had my return appointment at the RWH with the Repo specialist, another JOKE of an event! I saw a different dr to get my results who could not even find the notes in my file from my last visit! Then he managed to reveal my results, lucky they are all on a computer data base! - none the less, all promising. Karotyping for DH & I was aok, clotting not an issue & thyroid function clear.
Then rips out...wait for it... I THINK YOU SHOULD SEE SOMEONE IN THE RECURRENT MC CLINIC downstairs!!! My immediate thought was NO ****! TELL ME SOMETHING I DONT KNOW!?!!? But I remained calm, explained the situation from start to end again for the millionth time & got the old... im sorry for what you have suffered & the nightmare this hospital has burdened you with - BUT you still have a 70% chance & I wish you all the best. END OF STORY!

Anyways, DH & I left there again with no answers, but more questions. Then only days later I got another BFP knowing I have no one to help me through the inevitable, no treatments to attempt - just left to sit back & watch it happen all over again.

BUT! (jeezus, i havent had a ramble like this since my first posting!!! LOL)
I have my appointment in March for the RCMC clinic, regardless (after their horrific stuff up!) & will also now hunt down Dr. S & get another ball rolling! I do realise how lucky I am that DH only has to look at me & I'm preggo. Thats why I cant bring myself to post in the TTC forum, I see what the other poor women go thru & would just feel like a fraud being there & then when I am preggo I feel like a fraud to post in the preggo forum becuase I know I'm not a stayer (again not being a drainer, just a realist - I cant post when I dont feel 110% about it) & don't wish to scare other women that need all the reassuring they can get.

Anyways, thats the saga to date! Ahhhh, if you dont laugh you cry hey... You just make sure you keep in touch Dory & take the very best of care - I have everything crossed for you x x x Whats your edd?? & what week are you in now??? ooohhh, I want all the goss!!!

HB KS & Traylee Thank you all for the advise - I take it all on board & cherish it. I refuse to be a statistic & you ladies help me on that road. The only place I have got any real answers is the bloody internet! LOL! Seriously, you guys are great & I send my genuine love & thanks