results in, where to next?

[MeredithD]

I have posted most of my story in PAML but brief overview.
I had 2 m/cs (following AC ) in 2005 - unexplained. 2nd baby was tested - normal. DH and I tested for everything - nothing found.
2006 - OI/IUI with clexane following ovulation led to conception and successful pf with my gogeous DS.
2008 - finally pg again with OI/clexane again. Discover we are expecting twins only to be shattered a few weeks later when they died within a week of each other.
I have since had D&C and full genetic testing again of the babies.
Still having problems post D&C. My OB kept putting me off but agreed yesterday that whats happening is NOt normal and I probably need looking at.
Happened to have appt with FS today to discuss the future (another story!) so she gave me quick scan and yep does look like there is still some "product" remaining. have to have a 'proper" scan tomorrow but hoping there is not much as even FS is reluctant for me to have yet another D&C. I have had retained "product" (hate that term!) previously and was fairly unwell.
I also got results from genetic analysis. They only got results from one of the babies... a boy with Trisomy 15. So now a whole bucket load more questions. i thought I would feel relieved to finally have an answer for a m/c but just feel lost. We don't know if the other was abnormal or just died for other reasons. My last m/c was defnitely not for genetic reasons so I obviously have other undiagnosed issues too. My concerns regarding my age have also been really brought out again. Trisomies are almost always related to advancing maternal age so now the worry over poor eggies.
My FS is normally very positive about everything but today, she even admitted that yes my age and the fact that I have had 3 m/c's IS a concern. My chances of another loss are much higher... not stuff I really want to hear.
Given I need AC anyway, she did talk about doing full IVF with PGD to at least lower the risk of another trisomy. Kind of decided we would just try again without the PGD next time but now I am beginning to rethink. Just not sure what to do. anyone done PGD?
Going to repeat all the reccurent m/c tests in a few weeks given its been 2yrs since last done but not expecting anything to show up.
Just sooo want to be pg again and past all the worrying about whether I will lose more babies. I am so so tired of all this but I know I will press on. That urge for more children is not going to fade!

[Michelle71]

Meredith - I don't have any answers for you, just an understanding ear if you need it and the hope that your dream of more children is quickly fulfilled

[BekZ]

Meredith - Hugs hon. I really don't have any solid recommendations for you but if you are concerned about the health of your eggs maybe consider using a natural therapist who will complement conventional fertility treatment. I have heard that the Sharkey's Healing Centre is excellent and I have seen a couple of threads here at BB on it.

[ClareBear28]

Thinkin of you hon, I can't begin to imagine how you're feelin, so much going around in your head....
Here's a big hug for you and I'll say a little fairy prayer for you too

[diannescruffy]

Hi Meredith,
Big hugs to you hun, so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you during this tough time, we are here for you. Have hope hun, two years ago I had a stillbirth and our baby had Trisomy 13 (not sure the difference with Trisomy 15) but we now have a healthy baby girl. Your dream can still come true.
Regards,
Dianne

[Lee]

Hi Meredith,

What a tough time you are going through right now. I don't have any great advice - other than to say - I don't think you are that old at 36! I'm 39, I had a Trisomy 21 pregnancy last August, had an early miscarriage in November, and fell pregnant in December with this one, which looks perfectly healthy. I think you just have to keep trying, and eventually you will hit the jackpot. I have no experience of pnd, I live in Tassie - I did ask my Ob about it and he said it's not available here, and would require many trips to Melbourne - all seemed a bit hard. So we just decided we have had our "bad luck" and to keep trying. I do think my early (5 weeks) miscarriage may have been another chromosonal problem - but at least that time my body did what it was supposed to do. I'll never know for sure, but it seems a bit of a coincidence.

Hang in there, whatever you decide to do - but most of us know the urge to have children is greater than the fear of not trying

Lee xo

[loopy_girl21]

So sorry for your loss... *HUGS*