This time last week I gave birth to my Baby Girl Emily she was 19 weeks and 3 day.

I found out the day before at a routine Dr's appointment that she had died at least a week before which I think I new that something was wrong but didn't want to acknowledge the fact. When I got to the appointment my Dr said that they had found some blemishes on the ultrasound I wasn't that worried because my previous pregnancy had been the same and I was blessed with a beautiful baby boy so I was not that worried. It wasn't until the Dr could not find my babies heart beat that my hole world just collapse, after having three previous pregnancy without a problem I was shocked, confused and wondering if I had cause this to happen.

The experience of having to deliver a baby which you know will never make a sound is one I hope never to go through again, Sorry if this is all over the place but I really have know idea yet how to put my feelings into words but this is the only way I seem to be able to express my feelings at the moment. HOW DO YOU GO ON IS ALL I WANT TO KNOW ?????