Just wanted to say i am glad that you went to hospital and got the help you needed i am sorry to hear that you lost both your angels it is a very hard thing to go through and it think the cremation idea is a very good idea things like that help us move forward. i no how you feel when you have to remind yourself you are no longer pregnant i got to 23 weeks so to not have my bump anymore was hard to deal with i would wake up every morning happy untill i remembered that i was no longer pregnant it is an emotional rolocoaster and it takes time to grieve hope you pain eases soon take care of yourself.
Thank You everyone for your thoughts and prayers. Just to update you. Today we took our angels to the crematorium. We have picked out the most beautiful urn for them to go in. The urn has to come over from the states, its white handcrafted marble. The way I figured it I had money aside for prams, cots etc. Which unfortunately I will not need. These two, Krystal and Cameron, will fly before they ever walk. It was hard to leave them there, the logical side of me had to take over because the emotional side of me would have just stayed there. The people I dealt with were fantastic. They treated them with the respect they deserved. Thank You again to everyone.
I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don’t hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.
New ID...... When I first logged on to Belly Belly I was in a state of complete confusion and a feeling of not really being worth anything, i m sure there are plenty of you who understand. Anyway the ID JustMe was appropriate. As the days have gone on, and there have only been 9 I m trying to learn to live with the loss of my 2 angel babies. During this time I have worked on a Web site dedicated to my 2 angels. Am working on Dedication Albums for each of them as well as an artwork. Part of it all is learning to continue to live so with respect to my Angel Babies I have changed my ID as part of that process.
Loved the poem - there are alot of us who wear these shoes. There is only one good thing about many of us wearing them and that is we have each other to lean on. I just have one wish and that is that all of us get to have that bundle of joy we all so desperately want. to all.
can I ask where you got the poem I shared it with a friend of mine whose son passed away 48hrs after birth anyway she is in US she asked if she could share it with her local loss group ??? so wanted the credits for poem etc
Rach75...... I have no idea on the author. I have spent countless hours, unfortunatley, surfing the net reading poems and looking at pictures and have a heck of a collection of them now. They help sometimes to just read some of them. I ve posted a few of them on my web site but that one I found after that and havnt updated the site yet.
It is an amaizing poem though, full credit to whomever wrote it.
Rach75.... I have put quite a few on a web site I did, I know that some web site block it so you cant copy and paste but if you want anything of the site I did or if she does.... go for it. Hope it helps
Hi Angel Babies,
I have just had a look at your website. (I hope that you dont mind)
It is so beautiful, I couldnt see it very well for the tears!
Hope you are doing OK,
I certainly have no problem with you having a look the web site. I did the web site for 2 main reasons. Firstly as a tribute to my little angels. Secondly, as I was going through it all I spent countless hours on the internet reading and searching sites. It helped greatly. It allowed me to understand that what I was feeling was Very normal.
I will continue the site as long as I can in the hope that it will help othes.
I know I'm way late on the uptake, but I had a horrible obstetrician as well. There's nothing that can take their harsh words out of your head, which to me has been the worst part of losing our baby. There are doctors out there that do have a heart (I hope), you just need to find one. I hope you are coping and get the answers that you need.
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to all.
I shall tell my friend to just feel free to use it 
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