I was on IVF and got the glourious news that it had worked and i was infact pregnant with twins. I was so thrilled. That was until my IVF specialist told me a week later that the HCG levels werent very high. Another week later and i was told that i will be miscarrying them. Not to worry, "just a bit of tissue". I sit here now just 2 days off 10 weeks to say that i spent New Years Eve and New Years Day miscarrying, not 'a bit of tissue' but my baby or babies.

Now thats where i need help. How on earth am i meant to know if it was one of them or both of them. The IVF specialist is 'on holidays' and i really do NEVER want to see the heartless, cold ****** again. Sorry, cant think of how to convey what i think of him nicely.

So now i m stuck. I dont know where to go, I dont know what to do. I have been in incredible pain over the last 48hours with only Neurofen plus to assist.

Each time i loose more, i look at it, staring blankly, is it still the first baby or is this now the second. Maybe still holding onto some slight possiblility that it is only the first and that the second baby is fine and the doctor is wrong. I think everyone probably holds onto that thought that maybe the doctor is wrong.

So what do i do. My thought is that i need a scan to determine if it was one or both. to see if it was both was it complete or do i need a D & C. But who do i go and see. I dont have a local GP. I was seeing an IVF Specialist, one that i do not want to see again. How do i find someone that knows what they are doing and that treats my babies as babies and not medical waste.:doctor: