Im so sorry for your losses xx grief is so hard because everyone grieves in different.ways n different times. That's y we feel so alone.
Being pregnant does indeed help the sting go away of losing two babies but it also brings along its own set of fears n worries that seem to replace it. I'm finding that out atm.
find one friend that u can open up to, even if they don't understand totally. Sharing the burden usually helps you feel less weighed down.

I hope that u get another little babe soon. Hang in there n keep busy if u can