after 3 cycles of ivf i finally had a positve result on sept 13. today i had my last ivf scan before being referred to a baby dr. unfortunately my 9 1/2 week old beautiful baby died sometime in the last two days. it was heartbreaking to have my followup scan this arvo with a specialist. dh and i saw our perfect little baby, fingers toes and beautiful head and tummy.....and a still heart. im so devastated and i think in shock. i have been shopping, made dinner and carried on like usual. all except i cant speak to anyone but dh without sobbing and breaking down.
i have to face tomorrow. taking my boy to school and facing friends. plus booking a gp appt for curette referral as fs doesnt want me to try and miscarry as bubs too far along. so sad, its so unfair. i have had such a hard life since the age of 3. why does it continue? sorry have to stop. hope nobody is offended by my self absorbed post.