Hi Nicki - sorry to read about your loss. It is a terrible thing for anyone to go through and I'm thinking of you. I keep a special memory box, next to some candles I light when I am thinking of little Thomas. I also got a necklace, a blue love heart surrounded by tiny diamonds which I have never taken off, and I found this helped me get through. And little by little it gets easier, although you never forget, and the memories become sad and bittersweet instead of heartbreakingly tragic, it becomes part of the fabric of your life and of you and your partners journey through life together.

I found it bought my DH and I closer in the end after many difficult times.

best of luck, in my thoughts