I get that Sarah. I have a little less sadness with each year that passes. But I still look at my three beautiful children and see that gaping hole between DD and DS1.

I think it's hard because there is almost 3 years between them, whereas there's only 20 months between the boys - the same age gap we would have had between DD and our angel.
The day that keeps getting me is Saturday because I keep thinking I should be xxx weeks now as my due date was a Saturday.
I had that too, and I actually think that's one of the hardest parts of the EDD...you 'shouldn't be' anything anymore.. there was going to be a baby and now there's just not. In a small way that is also a relief too. You can just stop counting and let it go a little bit.

to you too Jodie. It is such an incredibly hard time.