First of all hun, Welcome to BB! I am sure you will find it a very supportive place and make lots of friends from it.

Second of all .

That is so unfair hun! Can they do any testing on either you or your DP to find out if there is any congenital link, or if it was just a series of unfortunate events for your bub. Have you spoken to a genetics counsellor?

It is hard seeing so many pg people when you have been through so much hun, and you notice them more when you have been through it. Tell your freinds and Sis how you are feeling. If you are not up to seeing a pg belly then politlely ask them to leave you alone for a while to allow you time to grieve. They will understand. I found it so difficult when I was pg and my sis was TTC. I never knew what to say, or if being there was hurting her. Please be honest with those who love you, and they will be understanding. You are an amazing woman, I can already tell by your post, and they will want to look after you. Dont give up hun, you now know you can get pg, and I know that it doesnt make you feel any better, but the time will come hun.

Allow yourself to grieve, and spend time doing the things you love. Get a massage, and buy a good book to sit a relax with. And feel free to vent her too hun. Many of the girls in here have been through what you are going through and will help you come out the other side.