I'm new but i think this is the place to get help and support. I don't know what to do, so I'll tell you my story and I hope someone out there can help.

I found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant four weeks ago, and spent 2 weeks not believing it. Since I was told that because I had PCOS I wouldn't be able to concieve naturally. It wasn't until my 8 week scan and I heard the heart beat for the first time that it really sunk in. I finally told some of my work buddies, one of whom it my best friend and also pregnant, in fact our due dates were only days apart.
Last friday night I woke with sharp stabbing pains and bleeding, i got to the hospital as fast as i could but by then it was too late. I had lost my baby at 10wks2days. They called it a spontaneous abortion. The pain (physically and phychologically) is still quiet overwhelming.

I feel confused, angry and empty. Angry with myself because i denied the fact that I pregnant for so long. Angry with the world because its not fair to give something so precious and then take it away.

My biggest concern is how do I tell my best friend what has happened and that I still want to be a part of her experience, even though there will be times where I can't bare it? I know i should put myself first but my friends (in particular this friend) are my support network and I dont think i could do it with out them.

Sorry for being so long and I hope someone can offer me some advice.