Oh huney - take the time you need to grieve.

I lost a baby around the same time as you ie found out bubs was an angel - and like you - passing 12 week mark was wonderful, and then so devastating. When I was waiting for my D&C I was my normal self in waiting room, talking to staff and doc/anaethetist etc like all was fine - I held so strong - yet when I came out of the anaesthetic - man I just started bawling - nurses were rushing over to me asking where my pain was - it was all in my heart.

They were great in that a lady just came out of a caesarian and woke up next to me, so they moved me straight away - something I will be forever grateful for.

I wish you blessings and healthy baby vibes on your journey. xxx