Thanks so much everyone

i showed dp all of your replies and it has made him feel a lot better, he thought he might of been over reacting about it aswell, but he feels heaps better now and cant wait to talk to her again so he can tell her what he thinks.

i really dont know what is going on with me?????? dp went to work yesterday and i was sitting at home alone and was getting angry and frusterated(sp?) at myself and how i have let this situation get out of hand, i havent left my house in 15 days all because i am to scared too, so i thought i would go do something that i normally would do on a monday night and thats go play tennis, i got dressed ( first time in days that i have got out of my nightie) got in the car and drove there BUT once i was there in the parking lot i couldnt get out of the car, i went into a ball of tears and all i could think was " i dont want to go on with life without you( bubba g)" and so i drove straight home. i feel that if i get life back to normal i will be forgetting about my little baby as if it meant nothing to me, if that makes sense??

dp has told me that no matter what he is going to take me down town tomorrow, apparently we are going to buy a drink and sit down and drink it then come home. i am scared and i dont want to. this is a small town and i really dont want to run into someone that doesnt know or even if they do know i dont want to hear them say " sorry" because that will make me cry and i dont want to do that, sounds silly i know.

i really wish this would go away, i have never been so unbalanced and so off in my life. everyone always tells me that " i am the strong one " and how well i have handled other situations that they could never of handled themselves. people always come to me when there in trouble or need help. now look at me i cant even go down town. why is this happening??

sorry to ramble on and please dont feel as though you need to reply. i am just venting at myself through this post. i will get it together soon, i know i will. i have bounced back before so i can do it again. just angry that its taking me a little longer