I am so close to my edge with Brendan I find I am doing things which I do not like doing, in regards to parenting. I don't like smacking as an everyday punishment, I do believe that there is other ways to discipline without smacking. But I am having so much trouble finding them. Time out does not work for us, taking things away does not work. Brendan simply does not understand that his actions were naughty so the punishments mean nothing. His sensory issues are really playing up atm too. He has been dummy free for about 3 weeks now and since then he has started mouthing everything else! It's so frustrating this moving forward 1 step going back 2 thing, I'm over it

Anyway he was playing up in the waiting room for the CHN when his OT saw us. We had a quick chat and she immediately picked up the sensory regression and the behavioural issues. As she is leaving (which I'm sad about, she's a brilliant OT!) she is going to organise a group thing for just Brendan and his therapists to see if we can come up with more suitable punishments for his developmental age. I just hope it's soon, I'm so close to being pushed over the edge I have a constant headache from gritting my teeth and a sore throat from yelling. I hate yelling it proves nothing, but I just don't know what else I can do nothing is working.

I hate the looks I get when we go shopping and I hate going shopping at all. I've only recently (last 2 months or so) started to get out and join groups ect because Brendan was doing so well. I dread going out in public, even just checking the mail is a huge effort. I also hate how Coles and Woolies have lollies on their checkouts and where kids can reach them. Our Woolies has a stand of lollipops right in the doorway and of course the kid wants one! I know it's just a marketing scam but I refuse to pay for anything my child opens because they put them within their reach. I would spend longer and more money shopping if my experience was more enjoyable...
Sorry going off topic...

I hate this waiting in limbo crap. I just can't wait for May to hurry up and be here so we can get the ball rolling and Brendan and myself on to some proper help and assistance. Sensory Integration diagnosis means nothing for us, it changed nothing. We were already doing speech and OT we were already doing paed visits. Brendan has not gained any extra help and neither have I. The only respite I get is the day Brendan is in daycare and even then we will probably bring him out because it is starting to cost us too much.

Just needed a vent, not looking for answers or advice so please don't be offended if I don't take up on advice. Thanks