just need to write it down. I am a total mess. Evan is at it again. I seriously don't think I have in me to do this.

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We have had at least every day to some degree a melt down. If we go out, there is a melt down. If we stay home, there is a melt down. I can't handle it. Seriously I feel like if I get in the car I wont come back. Todays episode went on for over an hour. His room is completely trashed, every draw is thrown around the room, both mattresses off the bunks are on the floor. He threw a number of items out the front door. Continuously screaming at me & DH to get out of the house. I spent the entire time of it crying. Trying to vacuum the floor & just ignore it. I can not deal with it. I don't know how to deal with it, I feel horrible & like I should just leave.
What started it? I said no more hiding eggs around the back yard.
I just have no clue how I am going to handle this if it continues to escalate the way it has been over the last few days.