I'm hoping there are a few people still around in here. It's been months since I've checked in on BB, but I'm not comfortable discussing these things openly on facebook & don't really have anywhere else.

Ok, DD1 is just a typical teenager.

DD2, her ADHD is reasonably under control & she's doing ok at school. But her impulsive behaviour is still sucky & her anxiety has just gone through the roof. The constant crying, sometimes for hours on end is doing my head in! At school, at home, because she can't stay up & watch a movie that starts at 10.30 at night... She's just an emotional mess & it's been going on for a few months.

DS's anxiety seems to be improving. Still waking regularly through the night, but I haven't heard about monsters or needed to stand at the toilet door for a while now (by while I mean about a week).

Then there's DD3. Her impulsive, down right dangerous behaviour is doing my head in. I'm suspecting SPD at least, but because she's so different to DD2, it's taken me this long to start seeing it.

She seems to be completely unaware of danger. Will run on the road without stopping EVERY time we leave the house if I don't stop her. SHE'S 5. This isn't normal. She's very physical. But not loving physical (smothering) like DD2, she's violent. She always starts physical fights, especially with DS & when he retaliates & hurts her she will rarely stop. She always launches back at him for more :/

When doing the wrong thing sometimes I wonder if she's pushing for me to be physical with her. She just keeps pushing it & will pull faces etc until I sometimes lose it & do smack. But I am starting to wonder if this is what she's looking for??

She has issues with clothes & mostly wears DS's old clothes. Not to fussed on dresses & hates having her hair done. And chews on the collar of her school shirt a lot when she gets home.

We recently moved into a 2 storey house... there are no fly screens upstairs yet (not that it'd stop her) but she's always leaning out the bloody windows! It's a nightmare!! Thankfully it's only bedrooms upstairs & unless she's changing for the 83rd time that day, she's not too worried about spending time up there.

Her tantrums are also epic. She won't remember what she's screaming about 40 minutes later, but she WILL force herself to vomit if she can.

I'm going bat**** crazy... I spoke to the fill in health nurse & got a referral to the child development team (speech, OT, paed, psych, etc) & saw a psychologist. Her answer was a rewards chart. After 3 weeks I could see that there was no difference whatsoever so gave up.

I'm again at the point of asking for help. My doctor sat there & said to me 'well she's clearly not ADHD. You have 2 difficult children, you're a single mother, so that in itself is difficult, she just wants attention & it will just always be difficult for you'. You have no idea how brushed off & ridiculous I feel now that's happened twice.

My carers review for DD2 had also come up... in his opinion once ADHD is medicated everything is basically sorted out & better. So I lose that tomorrow. Nothing about the anxiety, SPD or anything else I tried to discuss with him & have seen him about in the past mattered.

I don't have access to anyone else. I'm struggling, but I know enough that I know he's full of ****. I just feel ****ed off & like I just have to put up with this..

I wonder how he'll feel when next time a truck slams it's brakes on she doesn't make it across the road :/
(For the record I was mowing the lawn & she'd wandered off out of the yard alone to find DD2 who was with friends around the corner. I had no idea. Again, she's just turned 5! This is not normal, acceptable behaviour!!)