I wish I was happy to stop. I know that if we just stop and focus on these two gorgeous little kids we can really thrive as a family. The good days are freaking awesome, you know? And then the hard days get me down and I think if I added another baby the hard days would be more frequent and we'd stop thriving and just be surviving. Why chose that? For any of us?

Being a special needs family is really hard. Some days I hate that it affects so much of our lives and other days I feel all zen and remember that EVERY kid affects so much of your life. That's just parenting and the uniqueness of every child. But it is much more challenging.

I'm glad we didn't know what was going to happen with our DS1 or maybe we wouldn't have had DS2 when we did but in the end it's ended being the best thing as they're such great friends and our family wouldn't be what it is with only one of them. Which is what starts swaying me to having another because I know once we got over the hard part another sibling would add so much to both of my son's lives and to all of us as a family.

ETA: My H was always happy to stop at 2 too. He was kind of open to more but he's struggling to think that's a good idea now.