I went through the same thing. I was constantly checking to make sure DS was still breathing and I was always having bad dreams about losing him and waking in a panic. He slept in a bassinett for as long as he would fit it and hten movied into a playpen at the foot of our bed. I just couldnt' sleep well with im in his room, i needed him to be in the same room as me. DS is now alsmost two and i still check on him in the middle of the night if I get up to pee. Don['t worry though, the panic lessesns over time and it gets easier.