Hi, I am new to this forum and after reading many of the threads feel like I have finally found somewhere where I can speak freely about something that has really been bugging me since the birth of my fourth son last year - I am sad that I don't have a daughter! I feel really awful saying it and even as I write this, I am overcome by guilt as I have wonderful boys (including a set of twins). I feel like I am the only one who has ever experienced this type of depression as I can't find any literature on this subject and it isn't the type of thing you can discuss at playgroup! Please don't think I am a bad mother for feeling this way as I am at the point where I would do anything to just stop wishing for a girl but for some reason I can't! I have even started taking antidepressants as I think I may be post natal but while I feel a little better, the longing and feelings of dissapointment are still there. I would love to hear from others who may have felt the same way and I want to know if these feelings go away or if I will always be unhappy. We always wanted five children and I would love another one but I don't feel I could handle anymore comments from insensitive people when I am out and about and I really feel that the chances of me having a girl are pretty much nil. I have never tried any "methods" for getting a girl before as I really wasn't that worried until boy no. 4 was born and I guess reality hit that I wasn't going to have that little girl and my best friend for life!My husband and family are fantastic. Please don't judge me as I am a really dedicated mum and I am trying my hardest to get over how I feel. Your comments are really appreciated!