Heaven, I feel exactly the same way. I always wanted 4 children, still do, but I don't know how I will cope! I suppose it's not something you can prepare for, you just deal with? I will not be trying for another one for a good few years I think! I feel so blessed to have L and I want to enjoy just the 3 of us (DP too!) for a while I think it's very normal to feel that way. I don't know how others do it either! My mum had 3 children under 4 years, 1 special needs - no idea how she remained sane...