Oh Salad hun you poor poor thing... I do not think you are a terrible person at all. I'm glad you let some of it out on here... big hugs...

I can sort of sympathise - I'm having similar issues with my DD, who is coming up to 14mths. I'm at my wits end too.

I at least get a bit of a break coming to work three days... I feel terribly guilty when I hand her over thinking "Oh well at least she is someone else's problem for the next 10 hours or so".

You are not a bad mother, you are a tired, upset mother who wants the absolute best for her DD and doesn't know how to help her. In saying that I was in tears the other morning at about 5am saying to DH the exact same thing - "I am a terrible mother, I should know what is wrong with her and I should know how to fix it."

I'm sick of writing posts about it too and I feel like I'm always whinging and complaining... I understand those feelings completely.

I could almost have written that post myself word for word... and I haven't even gotten a paed appt, you are at least a bit further ahead than me. Perhaps I need to go down that path too.

When is your paed appt?