Not much has changed unfortunately. Bub is still in bed with me which still makes me incredibly uncomfortable, particularly as I scoot her away from me but somehow she ends up right back along side of me with her nose under my armpit (yuk).
She doesn't seem to burp at all and I have sat upto 30 min burping her in vain, but when I am lucky enough to get them out they are HUGE. I will look into a paed chiro but we have no money to see a specialist, we cannot afford for me to see the specialists I need at the moment either which is a pain but we'll get there.
She seems to have grown and got heavier so despite her bad suck habit she MUST be getting enough milk.
I still feel awful for DD1, but I also have a psychologist appointment this week so will discuss that along with other things as I think I may have some PND following from her birth and all the events from 2008 onwards. I don't usually feel so down for so long but it is hard to know whats PND and whats just hormonal/over tired newborn stuff too.
DH has been great but is constantly getting on my nerves I think I am a bitjealous he is able to get out and do heaps of things with DD1 and is able to just do whatever he likes but I feel bound to the baby and to sitting so she can constantly feed and be held. I don't resent that but I had been quite active during my pregnancy to suddenly have to stop when there really is a lot of things I want to get done is very frustrating.
I know "this too shall pass" and DD2 won't be little forever and I know she will probably go the way of her big sister and become a daddy's girl too but I just want to DO stuff and not be so reliant on DH (or anyone else) I hate that more than anything.
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