Thanks guys. I just feel very sad about the SPD. If it wasn't for that, I would have started trying ages ago.

DP and I agreed to just take a "let's see what happens" approach regarding TTC without charting/temping but not taking any precautions.

But then on Saturday I rolled around on the bed too much with my DD and my SPD flared up again. It just reminded me how absolutely agonising it is. I could cope if it resolved itself after the birth but it's still not right now - nine months after. I've had physio which I should still do but I think most people would be beside themselves if six months after the birth they are still as incapacitated as one week after a caesarean. I've never had a caesarean so I'm making that up a bit (!) but that's the best comparison I can draw. Six months after giving birth I could still only walk for 5 mins, standing was still painful, bending difficult and rolling over in bed very tricky. Apart from that, it's really, really draining to have to keep explaining to DP over and over again why I can't walk as fast as he can, why I don't want him to park a million miles away from the supermarket, why I don't want him to put the pram somewhere where I can't easily get to it etc. etc. etc.. It just does my head in that he can't remember this stuff and even more frustrating that there's so much stuff I can't do. FFS, it even hurt to lift the kettle to fill up bottles of formula.

And believe me, I can do pain, just not when there's no end in sight and it stops me doing things.

Apart from DH who found it very hard to understand, I have no support. My family is in the UK and DH's family are not very close.

Sorry, that was very rambly. Just upset.