I have 2 children 1 is 22 months 1 is almost 6 months..

Sometimes i find it hard coping with both and being a SAHM.

well this morning i did something horrible - DS was playing with DD as always but he found a lighter and was playing with it near her ( he knew it was wrong because when he noticed i saw it he tried to stash it), so anyway i took that off him, and told him he is not allowed to play with these and to bring it to me if he finds one. Then iturned around and he was pulling DD around in her walker by her bib which was on her neck. Well i lost it, i yelled at him really loud.... then i could smell Poo so i took him in the room to change him it was all ok, then DD was crying and DS kept grabbing thing off the change table and throwing them i told him to stop 3 or 4 times then he did it again and i lost it again and i screamed so loud right in his face, he was so scared he covered his face and cried....

Please i dont need anyone telling me what i did was worng i know that i am devestaed that i did what i did i dont want to make him feel scared of me....

OMG i feel so bad......



I love my kids with my heart and my soul..... i would die for them, i dont know how i could be so mean... he a little baby still in reality....