OMG i feel like a monster - how could i

[meegm]

Bubno 3 - he just really has no idea what it is like to look after 2 kids under 2 24 hours a day.. and hes not the most tolerant person with me sometimes... we both are dealing with this parent thing differently and if ide heard him yell at DS like i did ide be in there 2 seconds flat... to stop it... it wasnt nice.. its was mean yelling Physco yelling....

lucikly i dont get my AF ive got the implanon implant and im one of the lucky ones that only bleed once every now and then... but hormones still rage in my body sometimes.. i feel that.

Thanks Jaz - what you said makes alot of sense to me... and yes i do know its wrong and im tyring hard to do this right - im so scared that simething i will do will effect the way they are and how they will deal with situations - as i know how my upbringing effected me...

By the way hope the birth goes well and comes SOON ... Thank you again..

Sunshine - Def not the first time but probably the worst ive lost it... it is hard but its not as hard as i thought it was gonna be if that makes sense.... they are beautiful kids...