Jessica, what a lovely post. I feel exactly the same as you do. I want to have more for the right reasons.

I too don't thrive on loudness and many people. And my DD is a wonderful, happy little girl and quite well behaved but I too feel like it's so much work and I just am not sure whether I want to be stressed having more.

I also admire women who have more than one. I stop and think about how they do it and how strong they are. I guess that is why I have questioned myself. I know I'm a great mother and my DD hugs and kisses me regularly, we have a very close bond.

Thanks everyone for your replies, it has made me feel so much more at ease that I am not the only one that feels this way.