I just needed to get this out and I don't really want the whole world to see it so mods, I hope you don't mind me posting here.

DS is a week old tomorrow and I'm having a really hard time settling him during the day. It's making me sooo anxious that I've lost my appetite and have been in tears on and off for 3 days now.

My beautiful mum is here with us at the moment and is helping out a lot with DD but I am so anxious about how I am going to cope when she goes home on the weekend. DH went back to work on Monday and is gone from 6am till 6pm most days so it's just me and the kids home most of the day.

I can see for myself that I am putting too much pressure on us both to get into a 'routine' when he is only 6 days old but I just think what if this continues and he stays so unsettled?

The midwife who's been seeing us since we left hospital (we only stayed 30 hours) has been wonderful but all the strategies we've tried just aren't working.

I know I felt this way when DD was born but I guess after our m/c last year, IVF etc I'm just putting too much pressure on both of us for this to be the big happy babymoon it should be.

Someone please remind me that this gets easier, that I will find my confidence as a mum again and that I won't feel this anxious forever. I HATE feeling like this.

Please don't get me wrong, I love my DS more than anything in the world and feel bonded to him etc, it's just so hard trying to juggle him and a 2 yo when he's not sleeping during the day. I feel so guilty that DD is missing out on so much of my time when it's always just been me and her.